The Only Thing Holding Me Back is Depression.

By Medha Mukerji in Trending 09/05/2018

Life is very difficult. No… that’s not a fact, it’s just an interpretation that a person undergoing biological depression and anxiety would perceive. Life is just about facing challenges… big and small.. one after the other and moving ahead with it.


Agree? Or disagree? Here’s the truth. Every morning you wake up and you choose.. for some people the challenge is to plan the day.. for some it’s to prioritize tasks… and for some just getting out of the bed is the very first challenge!


Every challenge you face cannot be controlled. Someone bumping into your car, or your neighbor yelling at you for no reason whatsoever… or maybe your landlord suddenly realized that he needs to get rid of you to welcome his long lost child suddenly returning home and wanting that apartment back! Challenges cannot be chosen or controlled… but what we can control is our reaction. And that makes all the difference!


So when I was undergoing moderate level depression, my reactions were like this. Neighbour yelling at me? “He is such an ass… I will yell back.. he is wrong and I am right… how can he talk to me like this? Does he not understand that I am running a business and I have to leave every morning on a good note? What is his problem? People in this city are crazy.. they’re bad. Etc etc etc”


And it’s funny how your mind will make everyone seem like a devil apart from you. You start making more enemies rather than friends. And you keep on thinking you are justified.


Mind you, there is a difference between a person being ambitious and going against all odds to achieve something, and a person being depressed and unnecessarily going against everyone around him or her.



It’s surprising, that about 322 million people are living with depression worldwide and nearly half of them live in South East Asian and Western Pacific region, reflecting relatively large populations of India and China. (WHO Report titled Depression and Other Common Mental Disorders — Global Health Estimates)




Last year, the Central government conducted a survey amongst 12 states that stated that the current prevalence of depressive disorders in India accounts to 2.7% of the population! That’s about 40 lac people within twelve states!


Now, it’s for us to imagine, if a survey in only 12 states, assuming these are the A and B tier cities, has shown this result… the situation in the rural parts of the country can be pretty much unimaginable.


What seems ridiculous to me, is that when people have access to medication and therapy in cities, which is a blessing in disguise, they seem to repulse it. Opposing or denying facts doesn’t change anything, rather makes the situation worse.


Observing and then accepting what is wrong is the biggest step towards you, yourself being able to deal with the situations in a better manner.


Now here are some scary facts:


Major depressive disorder (MDD) is the most common psychiatric disorder. And unfortunately it is more prevalent amongst women.




Now let’s face it…. I am not getting into the “Why’s” of depression. I am more keen on writing about the “Now what’s” of the disease.


Yes, it is a silent killer… so subtle and so scheming that you won’t even know when it hit you.. and you turn out to lose your closest people, attract the company that is not good for you, and might even lead you to finally taking your own life. I’m not talking about me here… but I’m talking about some very famous people recently who have taken their own lives.


The reason for me to pen this down is very simple… I am encouraging people to take the medication that helps you bring yourself back.


Take note of your own reactions, and take note of the way you might take everything in a negative sense.

Yes, people are bad, situations are bad or could be worse… but if you are not being able to deal with it… there is something wrong with you. And that can be helped.. just like when you have a fever you need a paracetamol to get back on track…


It is said that long hours of working under strict deadlines cause up to 75% of working-women to suffer from depression or general anxiety disorder compared to women with lesser levels of psychological demands at work. (Source)


Women employed in sectors that demand more time such as media, knowledge process outsourcing and touring jobs are unable to take leave when unwell and force themselves to work mainly due to job insecurity,


Factors such exposure to industrial pollutants and environmental toxins, poor quality of sleep, lack of exercise, sunlight exposure, poor nutrition, excessive intake of alcohol, and drug abuse also cause depression.




While all this is true, it is also true that your life is your responsibility. I have really suffered without even knowing what was the cause of my suffering.

Having negative thoughts about everything is the most normal phenomenon, but if you are just “aware” of that, you can change your thoughts.


Every depression disorder doesn’t need medication to be treated. Self love and understanding and consciously not being negative about anything is the key.

Medha Mukerji

In 2010, Medha started her career at 21 with BNP Paribas Wealth Management as a support to Business Development and continued with Glaxo Smith Kline Consumer Health Care in their Accounting Control/Tax/Commercial department. Medha also worked as a General Secretary to an NGO called Human Child Age Care Educational Society during the year (reg) 2013 – 2015
Working at BNP Paribas, Medha would edit product notes and pitches for the clients. Soon enough, she knew that before doing MBA and starting her own company, she rather have the experience, and vision of exactly what she wanted to do, and then study further that would help and enhance the business.


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